one thing is for sure

you are worth living for<3

God, I’m not sure why I’m so focused on romantic love as of late. I think to some extent I always have been. But man, it’s at an all time high. I was just brushing my teeth and realized that I think about romantic love a lot. I think about what it would be like. What it will be like. What it could be like. How it will be like. I know I have the capacity to, but I don’t know that I will get to. And that’s sad. Even the crushes or attachments that I do end up in. I seek them but I’m holding out for perfect. And I know perfect doesn’t exist. And who am I! To even want for perfect when I’m nowhere near. And yet here we are. What if I really never get to experience it? I think I say it a bit passively but I never really actually believe that it won’t happen for me. But what if I really don’t get to have that? Man. Will you still be enough then?

You are mine & I am yours. What now?