a new season

A new season, a new story arch. I'm excited. I'm nervous. I already was frustrated. I already disappointed myself. BUT. What I'm eternally grateful for is the shift for this season. To do something other than linger. I can't remember when I heard the expression "done is better than perfect". It wasn't really until this year that I really have embraced it. Which is crazy because it's March and it feels like this year has just started and also like we're deep in it. But, done is better than perfect. So today has been a mix of a lot. I woke up not wanting to, but I woke up. I watched a sermon not really caring for it, but I finished it. I went on a walk questioning if I actually should go because I really wanted to just go back to sleep, but I questioned my way out the door. I left my camera on for a work meeting even though I didn't feel presentable or like I had a good set-up, but I left it on and focused on the speakers instead of on myself. I dozed in and out while reading the introduction of a new book so I had to keep re-reading over certain sentences, but I read the introduction. I didn't take any notes during my course review, but I put my all into the review problems. I had a bad attitude reading just now, but I'm trusting that the essence of the message can still seep through. I had nothing to write about. I really don't care to be writing right now, but I'm writing. And all of that can read back to me as having such a tough time today, but I can sincerely say that today has been wonderful. My breakfast was delicious. I got to listen to amazing vocalists and musicians create beautiful music that fed my soul. I got to feel cool crisp air and saw such beautiful things out on my walk. I was able to celebrate with the team that they had a few extra minutes back in their day since our meeting was quick and efficient. I genuinely understood the course material up until this point of review that I did today. I pushed through my readings and was able to get some insights on myself, my situations, my environments – the ridiculously egregious gift of my life. Which is funny because I just now looked up egregious to make sure I'm using it correctly and turns out it can be used to mean both extremely good and extremely bad. I mean it as extremely good. I mean it as in seeming almost reckless in how good it is. Jesus, you're so good to me. Thank you for all that I have! Thank you for getting my mind back for me! And today isn't even over yet! I put on my absolute favorite movie during lunch to have something to watch while I ate and had a quick debate with myself about whether I was going to continue watching the movie or continue with my self-assigned tasks first. I decided to do my tasks first. Well, as you might believe, I lallygagged quite a bit before. Truth be told, I probably lallygagged for more time than I actually spent doing my tasks. But here I am, on my last commitment of the day. And I get to wrap up my day watching the second half of my movie with youuuuu. ILY◡̈